All those years…you tortured me…
All those years…I knew I would be missed by SOMEONE…
All those years…I pretended…
All those years…I suffered…
No one knew about those years…
I stayed quiet…to not worry those close to me…
I stayed quiet…because none of the authority cared…
I stayed quiet…because I was ashamed to tell…
I stayed quiet…because I could tell myself you were jealous of me…
You scared me…into silence…
My laughter…was never real…
My laughter…hid the truth…
My laughter…pleased those close to me…
My laughter…helped me…
Because of you…I could never laugh…
I never cried…because I knew I wouldn’t be able to stop myself…
I never cried…so I could pretend to be strong…
I never cried…because they would worry…
I never cried…because you would have won sooner…
My lack of tears…only urged you…
Now…you have won…
Now…No one is here…
Now…you say you were only joking…
Now…I’m never alone and I’ll never see you…
I’m with the grandfather I never knew…now…I…thank you